The good news and just news

So I have had the results. Wish I actually had something to say about them.

Here is what I know: I don't have cancer. And I don't have endometriosis after all. I have a fibroid tumor that is deep and in the center of my uterus. This is the one that they feel is causing all of the bother.

Here is what I don't know: What does this mean? Do I need surgery to remove it? Do I need to go on birth control? Aren't there better options?

Here is what is happening: it seems the one fibroid tumor in the center is causing a bit of a bother. It is trying to replace my boyfriend. As it continues to grow, the lining of my uterus also continues to grow. Then, as it gets closer to my period, sex gets very painful and causes bleeding. Hmmm, I can tell you from experience that this is not sexy.

The next steps seem to be going in a few directions--some of which have happened, some of which haven't.

1) Get another ultrasound. This I have done--lucky me. So back in the saddle again I went. And hey, I'm not sure if it was because I knew what to expect or because this technician explained everything that she could see, but I felt better and more curious as to what all of those grey, black and white shapes were on the screen.

2) Go to a GI. This I haven't done yet. I should be going some time next week. They want to determine why I can eat anything processed without bloating up like a puffer fish. It seems While both the tumors, cysts, and bloating happened at the same time, this does not mean they are actually related. The only way to figure this out is by going to a GI and see if he/she sees something amiss.

3) Go to the OBGYN. I have done the initial procedure, but not the surgery consultation with the doctor. The nurse practitioner felt that enough was going on that it would be good to see the doctor and get her opinion. This doesn't happen for another month so I won't know very much until then.

I sorta feel like I am being pulled in many directions. I want to figure out the problems and start working on solutions. I feel like it just takes so long to get moving. So, I sit here, with a constant pain in my left butt check, always cramping, and very emotional--and still no closer to the truth.